Huz..

Those crappy things are meaningless..i love you..jia yee..i love you..jia yee jia yee jia yee jia yee she is the woman I love.. I’m too late.. she belongs to somebody by now..

I went bak to skul today..and I saw her..but I was trying to avoid from her..when I’m leaving..juz in front of her, bunch of frenz pulled me bak ..and tcher chatted with me..i saw her few feets away..she noticed me too..hoping I can approach her..but I can never do that..i ‘m already determined to let go in order to make both her and that guy happy..mayb she’ll think I’m a jerk or wat..i’m such a cold-blooded when come to deciding..coz it’s good to hav me unhappy than the other two unhappy..sometime more is not necessary a good thing..sth I learnt from from my post of account assistant..that’s why i’m willing to sacrifice for the sake of her..so I did not even make eye-contact with her like we used to..but walked away..past was past..i’m the one who brought inconvevience to ppl..i shud be the one who mend it..maybe she will be mad of me..yea..she shud.. I’m suck a jerk..she’ll never noe how much I love her..how much I’ve done to please her and disguise myself..at last..so much of sustaining knives and blades..i think I’ve made her happy.. ppl u love..no matter how much you do..the main thing is to make her happy..and I think I’ve both succeeded and failed..coz I’ve made her hate and angry of me..but at the same time…..she must be having wonderful moment with that guy by now…..i wish you GOOD LUCK!! I’m such a silly and stupid guy..now only you noe..

Blood Donation Drive

It has been a long time I did not do charity..i haven’t been so active in outside skul activity recently..so, i joined a blood donation drive force..it was a nice experience..the world of which I know is not that cruel actually..there are loves flowing among the these people..they are like me..hoping to help people to make the world a better place to live..although the drive was organised in somewhere I don’t really think there will be many ppl contributing a part of their body..but..we succeeded 350 packs of blood..this over-hits the first point of us..which we speculate there would be only 200 packs.. the result was quite shocking.. I wore a grey colour shirt and a pure white trousers and a pair of white shoes as well.. with the shirt tucked in tight like small kid..i feel the stupidity of mine..but it was nth actually..i told myself..’you are helping the society and saving the world right now’..so bother nth about ur nerd appearance..lol..standing before a banner..i helped giving out the small notices..some ppl wanted me to bring them to the place..so kind am i..and so proud of myself being so kind-hearted..then when I’m bak to the venue, ppl are still waiting to donate their blood..packs of blood laid on the tray faraway..those are result from our effort..with these bloods..thousands and millions of lives can be saved..from the donatee..i can see hearts of wilingness to help the victims…some are even disable..sitting in wheelchairs..but they holding a wish to contribute to this society.. love starting to bond among the visitors..love are see-able right now in front of me..this love makes our world remain its beauty..so beautiful it is..so pretty..and i dun want to die now..

Tug-of-War

Forgetting doesn’t mean abandoning the feeling for her..it’ll never..the feeling last forever..dunnot hesitate…when the stars bring you to tears again..dont look bak..no..

War has been declared..together we stand with just..with L’s super deductive thinking..Light’s mysteries..Shinigami’s eyes..i’ll make this world a perfect place to all human..

I’m a kid..who doesn’t like to lose..Unraveling mysteries..like L..Concealing crimes..like Light..Seeing flaw easily with Sinigami’s eyes..The war has been declared..So don’t you try to win me..you ‘ll never succeed..

I’m a man of pretending..living in disguise..i onli feel myself is myself when I’m in bathroom..when I’m take off my cloths..when water of shower washes away the disguise of mine..dat’s when I’m who I am..

Fren: Hey wad cha doin? Don’t make me dat face again..i hate ur murung face..hmm..since u r so unhappy..let me sing u a song...（于是一手便捉起吉它）

“路边有一朵花花边长着一粒瓜

瓜边蹲着阿牛阿牛等着他的阿花

阿花告诉那阿牛说

她要到那遥远的地方去寻找她的理想

她的梦和不一样的日子她要到远方去生活

阿牛呆呆看着阿花半天说不出一句话

他唯有无奈的摘下身边那朵花送给他的阿花

然后说希望这朵花能够伴你找到你的梦和你的理想

还交代阿花记得写信给他
啊................



阿花的信一次比一次短

阿牛等信的日子却一次比一次长

直到有一天直到有一天直到有一天

有人告诉那阿牛说

你的阿花已经嫁给别人当老婆

她永远不会回来故乡

你不必再等她她不会回来了啦


(福建)伊已经找到别个人嫁给有钱人

忘记故乡的人你何必再等她她永远不会回来了啦

(福建)难道要等伊一世人等伊一世人?



路边已经开满花花边也长满了瓜

瓜边依然蹲着阿牛阿牛依然等着他的阿花

可是花儿开了又谢瓜儿长了又采

阿牛的阿花始终没回来……”

砰！！门关上。。雄走了出去。。wad’s left of the guy is onli the guitar and fan’s spinning..

I don’t wanna let u go..sarangteogeso..

A day of nitemares in the day time..before it starts I tot it was goin be a wonderful day. Everything went well until dat guy appear..i dun blame him..but myself..dat moment onwards myself become zero..nth at all but a shadow..tailing behind..dat guy..i never study him thoroughly..but I think he is kinda immature..my frank words..i dunno..feels like is she a bitch or wat..a gurl who falls to other easily..juz bcoz dat guy likes her..is dat her..perhaps..i never noe her much actually..juz some physical chats never further our feeling though..is my fault not to bring it further..i hav no such courage..we noe each other in our hearts..never told her my feeling.nor did she.. but y am I so coward..i dunno..mayb I’ll never noe..wad I want is a thing dat can last long forever..not puppy like thing..not kids playing with toys..always attracted to new dolls..i noe nth of her much..cant even approach further since she is so defensive..i’ve promised to wait..but will i..?? it’s all my fault..all my fault ..WHY am I so noob in basketball..nah..nvm.things get over faster than u tot..juz let it be..

Things went well when I’m alone.when both of them disappeared..everyone seems odd..i noe sth’s happening..i suspect dat guy..i knew dat..with L’s deduction and shinigami’s eyes..i noe everything..her frenz started to crowd me and hav me to stay away from them..i obeyed their wish..and when we reach karaoke..she went there later..seemed feeling guilty and trying to approach me..but I knew dat..dat’s gurl..she was feeling sorry..i pretended I was busy checking the mag..never even bother bout her even she is behind me..and she noe dat I knew her existence..she tot I was angry..dat’s great my mission accomplished..but the side-effect was sorrowness aroused inside me..lasted for the rest of the days..never been so humiliated..then when on9..i pretended I was happy with the outing..and pretended to be ok when they ask me wether I’m still angry..and prtended to be fine in front of her too..

So many times I hav been thinking bout this problem..i noe I hav lose..the lack of caring and loving make me a loser..i never blame anyone..it was all my fault..erm..for not being honest..for not being caring enuff..but shud I giv up..?? there r two choices for u..he and me..which one will u choose..they bet she ‘ll choose him..me guess dat too..marathon-like love will never suit her I can say..dat day onwards I noe dat we are from different world..me a boring guy..likes to shopping onli for books and musics..a guy who dunno how to express himself when come to face to face..a guy who is so secretive..a guy is very proud of himself..thinking nothing can obstacle him..hidung tinggi u would say..with flying colors results..so famous dat the tcher oso praise him..noe how to play piano..love musics..singing not bad..erm..humor..HEY!! am I promoting myself??..lol..nah..dun bother bout them..there are a lot of things ya’ll still dunno bout me..you think these are my kelebihan..and u like dat..but after u befrended with me..u’ll noe I’m not dat great..oh shit..bak to topic..i’ll never be hers..tot we could do long run(marathon)..but who noes…things hav gone so ruined in these few months..and I noe this kind of love will never be guaranteed...so ..let’s flow with time..time will change my perspect..LOL…Honestly..dat nite I’ve wished a shinigami will send me to execution..but It never happened until I realize there are a lot of things for me to do..like saving this world..lol..so wish me gud luck..

One Hour Before SPM....

How come time passes so slow?!
My heart pounded so fast so hard..
Butterflies in my stomach..
Can't stop myself looking at the clock..
Every tick slices my flesh..
Every round crushes my bone..
It's sooo torturing..!!

Hand in hand

Hmm… have you ever seen other old couples holding hands walking in the park.. time passes so fast.. I don’t even noe it’s already spring.. Sniff sniff nice fragrance of flowers..

Everytime I see her..my heart pounded so fast so hard.. YOU let me meet her even a minute, that’ll please me the whole day..the whole day drunk in love..oh god.. what had happened to me..though so close, we so far from each other.. so eager to tell..no courage.. whenever I see into your eyes.. they contains not even my shadow..my heart falls into the canyon at the speed of light..as if it’s the end of the world..

Places flooded.. dark clouds shrouding lands.. the world of mine has turned into darkness.. fear strikes.. her sweet voice faded away.. followed by sweet fragrance..and even her shadow.. from my mind.. I cant keep her in my small lil room anymore..sorry..perhaps..