What a Sorrowful Night! T.T

I couldn't believe I would cry on the phone today. Mom called this evening.

The moment I heard her voice through the cell phone, uncontrollably I broke into tears.

I wanted to tell her how much I miss her and Dad.
I wanted to tell her how much I miss the hot weather in Malaysia.
I wanted to tell her how much I miss her cooking. This is the first time I don't get to see my family for so many days.

She noticed that I was crying. She sounded confused too, keep on consoling me. I looked terribly ugly weeping in middle of Hyde Park. Perhaps some of the pedestrians have seen me. It's awfully embarrassing.

But I really miss my family much. I love them really much. I terribly want to hug them now.
I wish I could fly home immediately. But this is my choice after all. And I shan't give up half way. (Not even half way through!!)

Now I finally understand how did Chin Hau feel being away from family. I'm now experiencing the same ache in heart and torture in mental.

Hugs and warm consolation that's all I need from somebody out there, anyone will do.

Strength shall I obtain.
Courage shall I build from within.
There's nothing that can stop me. (You know that!)
Godspeed!

*P/S: I love you, Mom and Dad!
I love you, Sis and Bro!
Thanks for buying the discounted Dan Brown's copy for me! XD

London Life

It’s been two weeks I've touched down in London.
Except the food and weather,
I'm quite adapted to the environment here.
The Hall mates are nice.
The friends that I made are all friendly.
Peter and gang are just good pals to hang around with.
We've been spending quite some nights to cook dinner together.
(Most of the time, I'm quite embarrassed for not being able to cook. So, I offer myself to do the dishes. XD)
I've got great neighbors too. They're from different countries (Qatar, UK, Hong Kong, Singapore, France).
We mix together well.

Food here are either too cold or too "hot" (Chinese medicine defined) . I've got sore throat these few days, which leads to dry coughing now. Luckily, mom has packed me some medicine. Might be a little too early to use them, but I can't afford to get even sicker since there are lots of activities lining up for me in the weeks coming.

It's autumn now. Even though it's just starting of the season. The weather is terrible. The temperature is not that low, but it's the wind that bites you down to the bones. What's more, the unpredictable and unexpected drizzle is really irritating, which it can make you shake uncontrollably in the street. These two factors have got me into serious coughing at nights.

I'm kinda hate myself for applying Pembridge Hall. It's damn far from campus. And I'm almost late for the lectures last 2 days. Walking is quite tiring, undeniably. The tiredness has driven me to fall asleep fast in the lectures. I tried to concentrate hard, sitting straight, drinking water and chatting with friend couldn't help at all stopping me from dozing off. As solution to this problem (as what we the Engineers always look for), I've tried to look for bikes in Oxford St., but in vain.

I've made a lot of good friends here. I've a lot of fun here. However, I really hope that I can adapt to this life faster. I need to gain back the courage and stamina I once had for this brand new chapter of my life. Godspeed!!

Last Sorrowful Night in M'sia.

Here I am, crouching by the window.
The stars above are winking at me happily.
But why ain't I felling exhilarated?

When wait finally comes to an end,
Thing that you've been anticipating,
Lies just a few steps before you.
But you hold back,
Fearing that it is just a dream.
Fearing that it is going to change the way you are.
Fearing that it comes too fast, accompanied with muddy traps.

The pearly white moon
Seems to know me well.
"Beauty lies beyond the eyes of its truthful beholder"
Caffeine never stops pumping adrenaline
My brain is pulsing fast
My heart is beating hard
Sorrow and excitement
Swirling within the veins
In this gloomy night

Greetings and wishes from all
Do nothing to cease the grief.
I recall an old-time story
Of a boy who tries to steal cookies from a jar.
With hand full, he couldn't pull his hand out of the jar.
If he let go, he gets no cookies,
And all his efforts sneaking into the kitchen will be in vain.
Scarification you have to make, to get your cookies.
I'm determined to pursue this bitter dream.
Turning my back to the loved ones,
To this lovely land, and the finger-licking-good foods.
There will be no U-turn.
No matter how misty the path ahead,
I'll keep on galloping, galloping, galloping.

馬公民權價值受肯定~

This is a touching moment.

The joy that aroused when they have their nationality in hands.
Some waited for 10 years.
Some waited since this nation was broken free.

They're so keen of being a part of us. They're eager to join our forces, to build this country, to live this big family.

Tears of joy unwittingly rolling down their cheeks, knowing that all their effort, after all, is worth the price.

They are no longer them, they are one of us now.

Irrespective of skin colour, gender, religion and culture, we are all under one roof, we are all 1Malaysia.


Welcome, to our big family.



*You can take Malaysians out of Malaysia,
but you can't take Malaysia out of Malaysians.*